The_Magic_09

You know what... I'm sick. I'm sick of everyhing. My parents, bad luck, LIFE, grades, school, location, CIRCUMSTANCES, distance between me and the ones that i care about most, Livejournal, people who bash things that are GREAT and they wouldnt know it if it walked up to them with a sign saying in big bold letters "GREAT". I saw RENT this week twice. It is the best movie to ever hit theatres. It deals with people who have every day problems, but those such as AIDS, HIV, paying the rent, surviving, Drugs, and Death. It is brilliant. And the symbolism is astounding. I feel sorry for those who just can't understand it.
They say something in the movie that is the one thing that i couldn't agree with more:

There is no future
There is no past
I live this moment as my last
There's only us
There's only this
Forget regret
Or life is yours to miss
No other road
No other way
No day but today.

Why cant people just live like that? Why can't everyone enjoy what they have, and live in the moment, instead of trying to make the next better. Who cares? There are going to be problems everyone faces in life, and it is how you deal with those problems that gets you through and decides just how good your life is going to be. See RENT then you'll understand what i'm talking about. Angel was the onyl one who went by this... She was truly happy, and lived in the moment... It is what kept her going. THAT is how people should live life... That is how you live life to the fullest...

I have a lot going on right now... But I am still here... no one is dead... and everything will be fine. So i had a bad week... Many things are going on right now that i wish were not... and there are things that i wish COULD BE... but can't because of circumstances out of my reach... I'm done with Livejournal... If you understand what i'm saying... comment... tell me. I want to know, how many people understand. And if you don't. Give me your Definition of living life to the fullest... and is it truly how you live your life?

PS: if you are rolling your eyes right now... well... all i can say, is that i'm sorry for you.

We're not gonna pay?
Last years RENT!
This years RENT!
Next years RENT!!


SEE IT!!! BEST MOVIE!!!


RENT

Her:
Kiss Me too fiercely
Hold me too tight
I meed help beliving
You're with me tonight
My wildest dreams
Could not forsee
Lying beside you
With you wanting me

And just for this moment
As long as you're mine
I've lot all resistance
And crossed some boarderline
And if it turnes out
It's over too fast
I'll make every last moment last
As long as you're mine

Him:
Maybe I'm brainless
Maybe I'm wise
But you've got me seeing
Though different eyes
Somehow I've fallen
Under your spell
And somehow I'm feeling
It's up that I fell

Both:
Every moment
As long as you're mine
I'll wake up my body
And make up for lost time

Him:
Say there's no future
For us as a pair

Both:
And though I know I may know
I don't care
Just for this moment
As long as you're mine
Come be how you want to
And see how bright we shine
Borrow the moonlight
Until it is though
And know I'll be here holding you
As long as you're mine

Him (spoken):
What is it?

Her (spoken):
It's just for the first time,
I feel ... wicked

So many things on my mind... I just wish everyone would look at the bright side of things. So something doesn't go the way you want... I hate to be harsh about it... but that's life. The only thing to do about it is to not get yourself and others down about it. If it isnt going to affect you or anyone youcare about in the long run, then just don't burden yourself with feelings of despression.

This weekend is going to be fun. At least I hope it will be.





Still can't wait for next weekend though... ONE WEEK UNTIL STATES!!! THEN 4 DAYS AFTER UNTIL THANKSGIVING!!!! WOOOOHOOOO!!!!

scratch that!!!


TWO WEEKS!!!! WAAAAAAAAAHOOOOOOO!!!!

STATES IS NEXT WEEKEND!!! WOOOOO!!!! Its interesting how things work out... I have a lesson with Christian Tamburr tomorrow! wow... kinda getting nervous...

ok PAUSE! for those of you that do not know who he is go to this website: www.christiantamburr.com
then continue reading.

For those of you who didnt actually go to the site, he is a well known Jazz Vibraphone player. Then i'm going to a gig of his... interesting. Excited...

Next weekend I am going to watch the OHHS band in state competition because they need to keep the State Championship title (HELL YEAH!! '05!). It isn't a matter of "will they?" its a matter of "how much are they going to win by?" cause they are that good. I'll let that sink in for a moment..... oh yeah.

Then the weekend after I'm going home for Thanksgiving! WHOO!!! wow... these next three weeks are gonna be awesome. I just can't wait.

WOW... I MISSED all of my friends. This is worth making an entry for. I miss everyone so much. This weekend was so amazing. It was VERY much needed. and all i can say is the worst part.... was the end. Well... I can't begin to write how i feel. I miss my friends back home and love them all. Yes, i love my friends, all of 'em! Thanksgiving is gonna be SO MUCH FUN!!!


Thank you for such a wonderful weekend. I seriously cannot begin to express how important my friends are to me. I just can't.




You are all so wonderful. Thank you.

So i have come to conclusion that i am done with relationships for a while. I just don't want more stress than i need... not in a bad way... actually i guess there is no other way to put it. Relationships bring drama which causes stress. That is something i do NOT need right now.
I'm really worried about my friends and family in Boca. I don't even know if i'm going to be able to make it down this week to see anyone. I really miss everyone and now because of fucking Wilma the phone lines are down... and aren't going back up for a several days at LEAST...

WILMA!!!!!! *imitating Fred Flinstone*

You know i just realized... no one seems to read these entries except for three people... so i don't know why i am even posting... Orginally it was to see what other people thought of my life i guess... to see if maybe they would say something that would make me go "huh... that is very interesting..." and change something... or even become a better person by learning from what other people think. But now i realize... why not just talk to those three people... i dont even know why i'm still typing... ok... stopping.... now

I went on tour this weekend with the UF percussion ensemble. It was boring. The most interesting thing was watching Jurrasic Park with a bunch of people. I am starting to get to know more people in the percussion studio better and everyone seems to be really cool. It was an okay day on saturday... kind of boring, but there was more "hanging out" than actualy performing. Today, we had two performances back to back, and it was extremely boring. The wierd part was that the two high school we performed at, I had been to with the Magic Drum and Bugle Corps in the summer of '04. Then the Wendy's that we ate at was the one we ate at during that summer as well. It awakened good memories... but didn't help my "homesickness". Some girl came up to me at the second high school and asked if i had been there two years previous. It was cool to have someone remember that besides me. I actually stood there and reminicesed with her for a few seconds before going to help put the equipment back in the truck. It was nice. A nice piece of history remembered for a few seconds. Then i found out on the bus trip home that the hurricane had cause half of the roof to rip off my mom's house.... that was not that pleasant... but i'm going to help with anything i can this weekend... it is a MUCH NEEDED trip home. i cant wait. I love it here, but I really can't wait to see all of my friends, go to a band competition and watch my old high school KICK BUTT, and help clean up from the hurricane. I miss everyone so much. I have really been down lately... Sunday morning through... well now.... i have been very down. I really miss all of my friends. I think it is a combination of missing them, and worrying about the hurricane that is just getting me down. It is really wierd... i'm just... not happy. Nothing seems to be "good". I mean... as much as i know this IS complaining in a way, nothing is bad... I just... really miss home. I am really homesick... I mean, home for me, after two summers of drumcorps, is anywhere that i am allowed to sleep... but i miss my friends...




a lot.


So i guess the best way to put it... i'm not depressed. I'm not sad... I'm just... not up. Happy with what i have... but missing what i need.

So everything is fine... Denise and I are friends. Everything is just... good. not wonderful, but not bad... at all.

I am going on tour with the percussion ensemble this sunday and monday... that should be fun. Max and I are rooming together... Fun stuff. I am having a movie marathon with Denise this weekend. Lauren is leaving though... I hope she has fun in St. Augustine.
I have no intention of starting any more relationships any time soon with anyone... at least not any planned ones. But then again I can't really say that because no real relationship is planned... it just happens. The relationship between Denise and I has really turned into more of a best friend type... which is good. Both of us are happy with it. I am actually very happy for her and Kyle. I hope they are happy together forever. It is still a little weird to say stuff like that... but it is becoming easier with each time said. So once again, I am happy for them.

So tune in tomarrow... same Live Time, same Livejournal.